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Hi girls
It is the third day. Thinking of the third day in the Bible, I think about the Resurrection of Christ. Today I can relate. I have been resurrected through this journey. Where death has settled into my bones and soul, God has brought new life blooming inside of me again. This is not because of a single event that happened during this past 3 days or even since the start of my journey with my eating patterns. It is in fact a whole series of events. It is the feeling of peaceful satisfaction after a hearty meal that I have felt today for the first time ever. It is the self-control God is growing in me to be able to say ‘no’ to a chocolate when I am satisfied after a meal. It is the mind-set of wanting to eat healthier because I am stewarding a body that God has created with so much care.
Awaking this morning, I felt tired and battered down. The battle I am fighting is wearing down my bones and its only day 3. I snapped at my loved ones when they asked me simple questions, I was negative about studying and my whole body needed rest after an 8-hour night’s rest. My one big request from God today was strength. I prayed to God to be my rock and my refuge (Psalm 31: 3). I felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling.
Alas, God stepped in for me. I prayed to the Lord and He heard my prayers (Psalm 34:6). God restored my joy to me with a video from one of my best friends. They joy I felt, radiated through my body, strengthening my bones, breathing new hope into my bones.
They joy I felt, radiated through my body, strengthening my bones, breathing new hope into my bones.
I had to rest today and take things easy. I had to allow myself to be lavished in God’s peace, seeing His character as provider and experiencing Him as my Comforter. His Spirit comforted me in the small gesture of a butterfly floating on the wind; carelessly, free, without a worry in the world. Oh how I wish my soul could be without worries some days.
Some days the world still seems to be on my shoulders, not necessarily because of external circumstances but because of the internal war that is inside of me. Every day, I have to lay down my burden again at the feet of Jesus, acknowledging the trust I have in His atonement and devoting myself to Him. Taking up the Cross becomes a habit.
Taking up the Cross becomes a habit.
One thing I struggled to implement today was obedience. No, I did not eat when I did not need the nutrients but when the plate of food was dished up; I lost myself in its goodness, forgetting to worship God in the simple act of eating. As I laid this disobedience down to God, I felt the urge to speak to a family member about the idea of cleaning up your plate. Man, did I receive abundant favour and gracious words. I could feel the noose loosening around my soul. Yes, I was disobedient. Yes, I received grace from God as He washed down that act of disobedience with the blood of Jesus. Yes, I am now set free in my mind-set.
My prayer tonight is that the restrictions we have in our mind-sets, setting us back from doing the will of God, will be broken and that it will be replaced with a Kingdom mind-set.
Nighty Night sweet girls
Lots of love
Inge xx
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