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Hallo Ladies
Its day 2 of my journey on overcoming overeating.
Wow. What a day. I awoke this morning wondering if I am strong enough to endure another day of this journey. This evening, as I am writing this, I know that I am not. I would not have survived this day if it were not for the grace of our Heavenly Father. I would not have gotten to know another part of His character if He did not want to reveal it. I could not possible have received so much freedom if He did not open the gate of the prison cell.
I would not have survived this day if it were not for the grace of our Heavenly Father.
Yes, I did receive freedom yesterday from idolizing food but there is so much more I need freedom from. See, God showed me today that I have been filling my vessel with emptiness for the last 7 years to such an extent that there was little place for God to reign. With every hunger pang ringing in my ears, making me wanting to clap my hands over my ears and fill the hole, I am reminded of how He is now emptying my soul to make space for Him. This temple of mine is under serious construction. The windows are being cleaned up so that I can see the light again. The grubbiness on the walls are scraped off to produce a cleansed version of the place where God is dwelling.
This temple of mine is under serious construction. The windows are being cleaned up so that I can see the light again. The grubbiness on the walls are scraped off to produce a cleansed version of the place where God is dwelling.
I may not have failed in obedience towards God today but it does not mean that I am not going to fail tomorrow. Every day I have to battle to set my mind on things above and not on food (Col. 3:2) but everyday, I am being trained in Jesus to become stronger. The only way I know to fight this battle is by keeping His praise on my lips. When thoughts of food hit, I replace it with the sweet honey-dripping words of Scripture. I am replacing an old habit with a new one.
Something I have been contending for today was for self-control. I have let the self-hatred erode all self-control I had left after my first and only diet ever. Today, as I prayed to God to provide me with self-control, I was confronted with the truth that as a new Creation in Jesus, I have already received the gift of self-control as He has given me a spirit of self-control (2 Tim. 1:7). I just need to exercise self-control as if I would exercise any muscle in my body to become stronger. See, every time I resist eating when my body doesn’t need the nutrition, I’m having to bite down on my teeth as hard as I can, repeating Scripture, knowing that I’m weak but that God is growing my ‘muscle’ of self-control.
Something I learned today about God’s character was that He is Provider. Every time I dish up my meal, I ask for a prompting of the Holy Spirit to tell me when to stop when I have dished up enough. Even after this prompting, I’m always satisfied and filled before my whole plate is cleaned, not because I’m obsessed with not eating too much or because I’m scared that I overstep the gracious boundaries God has created for me to enjoy my meal within, but rather because when He provides, He provides in abundance ALWAYS. I will never be in wants as long as I am lead by the Great Shepherd. (Psalm 23:1).
when He provides, He provides in abundance ALWAYS
My prayer tonight is that every person that is confronted with the greatness of the fog their addiction has created in the lives during this time of lockdown will see the Greatness of God shining through the fog.
Nighty night girls. Sleep tight.
Love
Inge xx
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