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Hey girls.
So I am still on the healing-journey-train.
Today I want to share my own journey of healing with you. I believe that in sharing this, I will experience abundant healing as well (not physical but rather emotionally and mentally). The more I get to explore God’s character of ‘Healer’ the more He heals deep wounds and reveal new truths of whom He is.
The more I get to explore God’s character of ‘Healer’ the more He heals deep wounds and reveal new truths of whom He is.
My story begin in the valley of my teenage years, 6 years ago. I was diagnosed with gluten intolerance after a long struggle. It all started with my wisdom teeth being surgically removed and I had to take very strong antibiotics. This resulted in a huge iron deficiency for which I received two iron infusions. It did not stop there. I felt tired the whole time, had stomachache, headaches and could not concentrate on any of my academics. My parents took me to a string of doctors, hoping they would diagnose me but they struggled to find out what was wrong. This time was one of the worst times concerning health in my life, as I have always been a healthy child. I recall my mom telling me how she used to be too scared to walk into my room every morning, as she was not sure if I would still be alive the next morning.
Yes, gluten intolerance sounds like just a stupid food allergy but it is not. When we did not know why I was so ill, it ruled my life by making me feel like a zombie. When we found out why I had all those symptoms, it ruled my life by determining to which social opportunity I was able to go to and what I was able to eat.
After I was finally diagnosed, we could manage the intolerance by adapting my diet. I could no longer eat all things I wanted to. As I mentioned, this turned my life around in terms of socializing. Every time I went to someone, I had to bring my own food. Every time my friends and I went to a restaurant, I had to explain why I could not order the burger when I really wanted to. I hated having to tell everyone about it, knowing that they would pity me. This was my life but I got used to it. It did not bother me anymore and the symptoms did not show as long as I kept to my strict gluten free diet. It became a habit to eat gluten free, to such an extent that I forgot that I was ill. Or rather, I did not regard myself as ill and I did not think Jesus would want to heal me.
I did not regard myself as ill and I did not think Jesus would want to heal me.
This was until December 2018. I spent time worshipping in my room one evening when I felt Jesus telling me that He was going to give me healing in abundance. With the state of mind I was in, disregarding my illness, I remember sort of laughing at God, telling Him I’m thankful but that I’m in top shape and that I don’t need healing. Being gluten intolerant did not even cross my mind when I thought of illness.
The next day I went to church. A pastor with a very strong prophetic gifting visited the church and as he was finishing off the sermon, He started giving prophetic word to people. I sat listening, not expecting him to call out to me and give me prophetic word but he did. He told me that God wanted to remove all the labels that has been put onto me and put a new red robe onto me. At the time, I have been receiving prophetic revelation for a couple of months that God wanted to put a red robe onto me but I interpreted it as emotional healing instead of physical healing. Despite this, I was left confused with the prophetic word even though I was grateful for it. After the church celebration, a friend of mine came to me, telling me that while the pastor was giving me prophetic word, she felt that the word was for my gluten intolerance; that Jesus wanted to heal me from gluten intolerance.
I was left breathless. My gluten intolerance was something that God wanted to heal? The illness that I did not regard as an illness? WOW!
I was left breathless. My gluten intolerance was something that God wanted to heal? The illness that I did not regard as an illness? WOW!
Slowly but surely, I started eating gluten again. At first, it took a lot of faith from my side but that small step of faith resulted in total healing. I responded to God asking me if I believe He can heal and the result was healing in abundance like he promised me that evening in my room.
The physical healing of my gluten intolerance had a snowball effect in my life, resulting in emotional and mental healing. Before healing, I really struggled with binge eating. After a couple of months of healing, God started working in my heart, healing binge eating. Before healing, I did not have faith in a healing God. After healing, I knew God could heal (to which extent, I was unsure). This healing not only grew faith in me but it grew faith in my family’s hearts in God as Healer and in every other person, I told my testimony to. Through this healing, I learned that God never grade illness as ‘light’, ‘mild’ or ‘very bad’. God wants to heals any state of abnormality in our bodies. God heals. God’s healing looks different for different people.
Through this healing, I learned that God never grade illness as ‘light’, ‘mild’ or ‘very bad’.
When I started writing this post, I could not see the real wonder of this healing. I did not want to write this post as I thought it would be unnecessary writing about another testimony of God healing. What I did not know was that through writing this post, God would increase faith in my heart. I asked God why He asked me to write this post and He asked me two questions: 1) were you ill? Moreover 2) Have you been healed? My answer was yes to both. Yes, I was ill with gluten intolerance. Yes, I could not enjoy all the food God created. Yes, I am healed now. Yes, I have so much more freedom in my heart. Yes, my whole body has been restored.
Writing this post, I was reminded of a dear friend who is also struggling with gluten intolerance. I asked her to write about her own experience of God working through this illness.
This is her story: In the rush of life, doing everything one has to do because you have to do it; one can so easily lose yourself in wanting to please other people. I disregarded my symptoms of gluten intolerance, thinking it was just stress because of my studies, thinking it will go away as soon as the stress is less. It did not go away. This is how my journey started.
It felt like the end of my world when I realized that ‘Black Orchid’ cake after a tough week would not be my little treat anymore. This was a huge adjustment not only physically but also emotionally and socially. My eating habits went south after a month of only eating fruit, yoghurt and gluten free granola. I lost a lot of weight, which was not the goal but it was good.
With the rest of me, it did not go well. Soon I started relying on coffee for energy but that also became my main source of headaches. Through this all, I felt so far from God. My prayer life started suffering because of my gluten intolerance and my trust in God decreased day by day. I started relying on myself instead of God.
Currently I am in a much better space. Gluten free bread is only bad until you have a toaster. I started eating more balanced.
In all this time, one friend supported me, helped me and gave me advice. After a long chat with God, I am finally on the road to recovery: mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically.
In all this time, one friend supported me, helped me and gave me advice. After a long chat with God, I am finally on the road to recovery: mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically.
How amazing that God can even use illness to heal us and impact others?
I want to encourage you ladies today to ask God to heal you. Whether it is from an illness that you do not see as illness or whether it is emotionally. God is Healer in every aspect. He will never turn you away when you knock at His door.
Love
Inge xx
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