Bloom Blissfully: God’s love Heals

Hey Beautiful Ladies,

So, I would like to ask you some interesting questions. Just take a moment and be honest with yourself.

Who are you? What do you base your identity on? Is your identity in Christ?

Being a tomboy at 4 years old, I had the tendency of being a bit rough. As I went for a bath one day, I was playing around like a little monkey, carelessly climbing on the edge of the bath whilst the water was pouring in. Little did I know or care to recognize that it was only boiling hot water running through the tap. I was trying to show our domestic worker, Suzi, one of my little tricks. I tried to grab onto one of the hooks on the wall but accidentally fell into the scorching hot water. I can still remember how my body was vigorously shaking because of the shock that it had to endure. My skin was slowly peeling and falling off my body. I was in so much pain and agony, trying to make sense of it all as a 4-year-old girl.

Why tell you this terrifying part of my life? Just as I physically felt pain at that moment, there was a time where that pain within me was so much worse.

It felt empty, lonely and unbearable.

A few years ago, I genuinely struggled with a fear of man, and with that my self-worth and self-confidence were at level zero. I tried to gain confidence by filling the void, the emptiness inside me, with meaningless pleasures and desires of this world.

I felt worthless and as if I had no meaning in life.

But I was too afraid to tell people; I felt ashamed. It was so much easier just to pretend, although pretending made everything worse. The mask I chose to wear, was busy isolating me, blocking the way from His truth and light.

Thankfully, I had community that guided me without even knowing the big impact they made in my life. They showed a part of God’s unconditional love and it made me realize that I had to let Him sing songs of love over me. Just as I trusted the doctors, my loving sister, and mom all those years ago, to help me heal from a third-degree burn with only one tiny scar left on my right forearm and tiny varicose veins on my legs, I had to trust God with childlike faith to heal me from the inside out.

It took time, patience, and a lot of prayer for this healing to happen. I still struggle at times to give everything to Him and surrender. But just like any other relationship, it takes patience, trust, commitment, communication, and determination to build it on a rock-solid foundation.

The Holy Spirit came into the depths of my mind, body, and soul, cleansing every contaminated part of me like a flowing river (Hebrews 10:22). His water showered me with eternal life and gave me total salvation. I had to spend time in the Word for it to cleanse me and time with Him so that the purification process can continue (Ephesians 5:26).

To be honest with you ladies, it is quite challenging to be so vulnerable in our new Bloom Series, but I know that God works in a miraculous and mysterious way, knowing it will all turn out for His good (1 Corinthians 10:31…whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God). He is the way and the truth (John 14:6… I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me) and so, I can lean on Him with all that I am (Proverbs 3:5-6… Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight), even if I am an imperfect human being.

I really hope and pray that my personal journey and testimonies will help and encourage you to engage with our Heavenly Father, to spend time delighting and getting to know Him, one on one.

Giving Him the freedom to heal you with His agape love.

If you feel lost and uncertain about your identity, pray this prayer and let the Holy Spirit take control:

Heavenly Father, thank you for loving me just as I am, with all my flaws and mistakes. I pray that I will be willing to open up my heart to you. Come and fill this emptiness in my heart and may I always acknowledge your healing character. Father, help me to see that you are the way, the truth, and the life. Let me see the truth about myself and my identity in You. May I love myself and accept myself just as You love and accept me the way I am. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Lots of Love,

Tehillah

xx